IN MEMORIAM Kathleen Martindale April 4, 1947 - February 17, 1995* I t is difficult for me to write about the life and work of Kathleen Martindale . My personal grief at the loss of a loved friend overwhelms me as it has many times in the last four months since it became inevitable that death must be the outcome of Kathleen’s struggle with cancer, waged though it was with all her enormous energy and abundant gift for life. More partic ularly, it is writing within the university “walls” that is the impediment. “Outsider” was how Kathleen saw herself as “an ex-Catholic and a convert to Judaism” who was a “voluntary exile from the United States as well as from heterosexuality” (“Real” 150), one of the “Outsider’s Society” (Woolf 122), looking on at “the procession of the sons of educated men” (73). As Virginia Woolf has characterized this “anonymous and secret society” work ing to end violence and to “ensure freedom” (126), it is a group of women who, though striving for “economic independence,” nonetheless find it pos sible to exercise “a mind and will” of their own (128-29) to inquire into the ways that the “tyrannies and servilities” of the public and private worlds are interconnected (162). Woolf enjoins such women to “bind themselves to obtain full knowledge of professional practices, and to reveal any instance of tyranny or abuse in their professions” — to “practice their profession ex perimentally” (129). In her manifesto, she further counsels: “[wjhat . . . is meant by ‘selling your mind without love’ ?” (107). Kathleen responded to this call fully, making her (our) profession the site of her research, the classroom the place of experiment, both for testing new knowledges and new ways of making knowledge, and as site of scholarly in vestigation, resulting in such published texts as “Theorizing Autobiography and Materialist Feminist Pedagogy” where the personal and political con verge to reshape the canon, the classroom. Learning and teaching were for *Editor’s note: Space limitations prevented the inclusion of this In Memoriam essay in the June 1995 issue of ESC, Gay-Lesbian Studies II. 251 Kathleen a praxis of resistance, pivotal point for a changing subject. Trans formation of the conditions and modes of knowledge production was what Kathleen strove for tirelessly, wittily, passionately. If I who am “hooked on change” find the pace of this transformation slow, Kathleen with her motto “Revolution NOW” found the resistance of the institution to innova tion an active instance of “tyranny.” Her work on various university bodies for curricular reform as well as her scholarship in areas of literary theory, women’s studies, and lesbian culture demonstrate her consistent response to frustration: a call, a question, a challenge launched to others to join with her in bringing about change. Collaboration was the crucial aspect of all her interventions. She went further, though, in responding to Woolf’s man ifesto: for at the centre of her research and teaching, as of her friendships and interests, was a passionate ethics, a profound concern for social justice that would include the erotic. As she writes (with Martha Saunders) in “Realizing Love and Justice: Lesbian Ethics in the Upper and Lower Case,” an ethical drive working for community, accountability, and entrustment is distinguished, for lesbian feminism, by the erotic as necessary condition of the ethical. This might entail difficult choices, she pointed out, in terms of the kind of community with which lesbians want to identify, to whom they will be accountable: [I]s it the smaller, more intimate community of those with whom one feels relatively safe and protected in an otherwise hostile world? Or is it a larger, or at any rate more broadly conceived, community of all those who are struggling for justice? ( “Real” 152-53) That Kathleen made the less comfortable commitment to justice has been to the enlargement of her circle of friendships and to the benefit of her students and the university community as a whole, for her eye alert to the slightest hint of injustice — sexism, racism, classism, homophobia— while it made life very painful for her personally, gave support to many others because of the quickness of her protest and discovery...