I HAD NEVER THOUGHT about about my life. Who wants to know about it, anyway? However, whenever I talked about my experience growing up in India, people would say, Hey, you gotta write your life story. I would laugh, Sure! And that would be the end of it. The repeated reminders by friends and acquaintances finally persuaded me, and I decided to write about my life when I retired from administration. The hardest part was to begin. We moved to Manassas and I set up my office. I would sit in front of my computer and start to write. Then my fingers would freeze on the keyboard, and I would end up surfing the Internet, responding to emails or playing solitaire. It took two months to finally get one sentence on the screen, but then I finished a whole chapter in less than half an hour. When done, I was sweating, huffing, and puffing. It was an emotional experience, and I was tired, but it got me started. Once begun, became second nature. The key to writing, I learned, is to first think a lot about what I wanted to write. I just kept writing in my head. This gave me a lot of practice and confidence when I eventually sat down in front of my computer. The second lesson I learned is not to be afraid to write. I knew I could come back and make it better or totally rewrite it. Getting it off my chest was a wonderful experience. The computer became my confessor. In this article I am reproducing two chapters from my book.1 The first one has to do with when I became deaf, and the second recounts my interview for a government job. PANIC IN SILENCE I was deaf! I could not hear. I could not understand people. Birds did not chirp, cows did not moo, the wind did not howl, stray village dogs did not bark! It was total silence, but it was not! The noise in my head worked overtime, and, having nothing to do, I played with this pesky noise. I had an orchestra playing there. I tried to get the noise out of my head with the belief that, once I got rid of it, I would be able to hear. I had decided that it was this noise that was blocking out all sounds from entering my ears. The efforts, as you may know, were as successful as my later efforts at practicing telekinesis. However, these efforts kept my mind away from deafness. Even worse than the noise was my weakness from one month of high fever. I could not get up from the bed. Bhabhi, my mother, and Sham, my elder brother, or someone else would help me get up when I needed to relieve myself. It was very embarrassing, as I had to sit on a bowl placed in a corner of the room. I would sit on it and relieve myself while they looked away to give me a false sense of privacy. The stench made me sick, but Sham and Bhabhi never mentioned it. They would carry the bowl out, keeping it at arm's length to throw the contents in the gorge outside the cluster of houses where we lived. During the day, they would put a cot in the courtyard and cany me to it. There I would lie under quilts, savoring the warmth of the January sun and hiding my face from the village women who gathered there daily to swap gossip. I would not look at them when they tried to talk to me. I was embarrassed at being deaf. They would patiently come and try to get my attention. I learned that I could shut them off just by looking away. If you were hearing, you could not ignore people who were trying to get your attention; if you were deaf; it was easy-just look away! There were benefits of being deaf. But the idea of being deaf petrified me. I shuddered at the term bola in Punjabi, behra, in Urdu, and vadhir in Hindi. All these were extremely offensive and derogatory terms describing someone who was not really human. I had never known a deaf person in my life; however, I had seen one, and thinking about him while lying in the warm January sun in Gagret made me wish I could make myself disappear under the quilt. The only deaf person in our village was a mentally retarded old man. …