One may liken dread to dizziness. He whose eye chances to look down into the yawning abyss becomes dizzy. But the reason for it is just as much his eye as it is the precipice. For suppose he had not looked down. Soren Kierkegaard(1) Let yourself fly! Release all! Lose All! Take to the air. Take to the open sea. Take to letters (literature). Listen nothing is found. Nothing is lost. All is for the seeking. Go, fly, swim, leap, descend, cross, love the unknown, love the uncertain, love that which has not yet been seen, love anyone, what you are, what you will be, leave, acquit yourself of the old lies, dare that which you do not dare ... Helene Cixous(2) Jane Bowles' memorable rendering of women's anxieties in her short fiction and her novel, Two Serious Ladies, vivifies a concept of dread born of the angst and agoraphobia which harass individual choices of vocation, sexual preference, spiritual aspirations, and moral codes. As a philosophical concept, dread has historically been appropriated by pontifical male philosophers, such as Soren Kierkegaard and Martin Heidegger, and distilled into a necessary existential condition for the becoming (male) self. As a condition, mood, emotion ascribed to female experience, however, existential dread is more culturally and psychologically freighted. I suggest that Bowles' work has been unjustly neglected, not only because of her limited production and her reputation as an eccentric or avant-garde writer, but also because her subject, the dread which accompanies choice, has disquieting implications, particularly for women readers and writers. Bowles' heroines employ original strategies in confronting dread by exercising their existential freedom and responsibility to choose in both Bowles' long short story, Camp Cataract, and her only completed novel, Two Serious Ladies. Bowles came to confront the act of writing by way of Europe, through the Swiss education she received during her teen years. Claiming as her literary forbears Proust, Gide, and Celine, she wrote her first novel in French, Le Phaelon Hypocrite (a piece of juvenilia which has since been lost). Both Bowles and her husband, the writer and composer Paul Bowles, were drawn to the existentialist aura emanating from Paris in the 1940s, Jane Bowles' most productive period. French existentialism, which foregrounded the individual, freedom, choice, and the erasure of God, impinged upon the shape and substance of the narrative patterns in both their fictions. Jane Bowles appeared to acknowledge the purer existential position of her husband, claiming that he came to write in true relation to his isolation(3) in novels like The Sheltering Sky, where individuality is exposed as a flimsy myth and the universe invoked as bleakly indifferent to the human plight. Possibly more than the fiction of any other American writer, Paul Bowles' work extends the literary existentialism of Sartre and Camus into the postmodern and post-Western world. While existentialism challenged Jane Bowles' conception of herself as a writer, in turn her work challenges the masculinist construction of this lived philosophy. While post-structuralists would dismiss existentialism's focus on the authenticity of individual experience as linguistic artifice, feminist literary critics who argue for the value of female experience have largely ignored possible connections between representations of women's lives and existentialism. A likely source of this disaffection is suggested by the feminist philosopher Jeffner Allen, who has analyzed the patriarchal context from which existentialism developed, pointing to Kierkegaard's, Nietzsche's, Sartre's, and Camus' exclusive preoccupation with the male individual's freedom to choose. Allen is also critical of the hubristic tendency of the agnostic male existentialists to replace God with man as the center of meaning. …
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