A Life in Print Preview, and: Out of Breath Gabrielle Burton (bio) A Life in Print Preview My calculations—eighteen nighttime hours,on a photobook for my daughter's school.A toddler's birthday feted in circle timewith cake, and her, for once, her turn to steplightly round while holding up a globe—one "walk around the sun" for every yearof life. Four times, she'll spin around her friends.I loathed the thought of storing a large boardof pictures, stickers, words in bright pink paint.Now I'm stuck. How can you summarize a child?The computer glows: I'm just halfway.I am behind at work. The laundry's piledso high we cannot open the bathroom door.Last night's dishes crust in the sink. I stayawake and shuffle photos, write captions,click refresh. The sun slowly turns the sky to milk,and I decide that, in another hour,I'll call my parents to say hello. For now,I curse the screen, sip cold black coffee,and wait for resolution to appear. Out of Breath You lie on the edgeof your pillow, the edgeof your bed in this room at the edge [End Page 76] of the hospital.Your eyes face the window.A sliver of dim light edges its waythrough thick gray clouds and slatted shadesonto your cheek. How is it we can walk,back straight, neck strong,right into the face of death?Which comes with a tap on the shoulderfrom a mugger's dull pipeor the crackle of metal as a car compacts.Or comes in a room like this, in a slow unwindingof a heart, the last breath held ontolike a rope unraveling,frayed ends disappearing. The ground below us turns to dust.The air blooms with smoke;black particles coat our lungs.Water-borne bits soak into skinwhile rising tides of hothouse bugs and couture cropsinfuse our streams of blood.We sit like toy ships in a child's tubriding waves that grow only to return.Death comes like a lover,and we turn our cheek to catch its light.I am sorry, my friend. I cannot watch. I run from the building,run without stoppingeven though it is raining. [End Page 77] Gabrielle Burton Gabrielle C. Burton is a writer and filmmaker in Delaware, Ohio, who won the Ohio Arts Council's Individual Excellence Award two years in a row, in poetry and also in filmmaking. Burton was finalist for best poem of the year from the Hawaii Review, won the Common Ground Review prize for best poem of 2014, and won the Thomas Wilhelmus award from Southern Indiana Review. Publications also include New Delta Review, Los Angeles Review, and Connecticut River Review. Burton helms the production company Five Sisters Productions with her five real-life sisters, making features, documentaries, commercials, and recently a series of "film poems" on underrepresented voices. She directed the award-winning documentary Kings, Queens, & In-Betweens and recently won a Wexner Center artist's residency for a doc inspired by her TEDx Talk on gender and parenting. Her comedy series on ageism, Old Guy, starring her father, Roger Burton (Baskets), and Peri Gilpin (Frasier), can be seen on igtv and Youtube. Copyright © 2020 University of Nebraska Press
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