Storytelling, Self, Society, 7:72-76, 2011 Copyright©Taylor &Francis Group, LLC ISSN1550-5340 print /1932-0280 online DOI:10.1080/15505340.201 1.533980 Routledge Taylor &Francis Croup PERFORMANCE REVIEW The Journey Within: Connie Regan-Blake's "Hope Is Back on Me" JillJohnson "All journeys have secret destinations ofwhich the traveler isunaware." - Martin Buber "Africa. . . So beginsa performance of"HopeIs BackonMe,"ConnieReganBlake 'sstorytelling showofher2007journey toUganda, performed atWhidbey Children's Theater onWhidbey Island, Washington StateinOctober 2009.ReganBlakeexplored 17daysoftransformative experience ina piecethat waspart travel essay,partpersonal experience story, partfolktale, andpartethnography. This essaywilldiscusstheperformance from twoperspectives: as a combination of visualimages, soundrecordings andtraditional storytelling; andas anoraltravel narrative with components ofanexternal andinternal journey. Formorethan30 years,Regan-Blake has beenat theforefront ofthecontemporary storytelling movement. She was a founding member oftheNational Storytelling Network (NSN, formerly NAPPS/NSA)andtheartistic director of theNationalStorytelling FestivalandtheTell It in theMountains Storytelling Festival.She has receivedthe NSN Circle of Excellenceand theLifetime Achievement Award andhassevenawardwinning recordings tohercredit. Primarily knownforhermastery of thefolktale, Regan-Blake takesa new direction withthispiece.Rather thansolelyinviting herlisteners on a journey oftheimagination, shealso provides a riveting taleofan actual,physical journeyto an unfamiliar place anddescribes thepeopleshemeetsalongtheway. Regan-Blake traveled toUgandaattheinvitation oftwodearfriends: Dr.Charles Address correspondence toJill Johnson, 725Suzanne Court, Langley, WA98260. E-mail: story @whidbey.com PERFORMANCE REVIEW 73 Steinburg, who has treated AIDS patients in Ugandasince2003, and Torkin Wakefield, whofounded BeadforLife,a development program inwhich impoverished womenmakehandcrafted jewelryfrom recycled paper.In addition to training, savings accounts, andbusiness funding for thewomen, Beadfor Lifealso hasprojects inhealth, affordable housing, andbusiness development. Theoriginalidea was forRegan-Blake toperform andrecord thestories oftheheaders. Although theplanwent through several revisions, bothelements ofthisoriginal ideawerepresent inthis performance. We followtheteller from first impressions - thelushtropical beautyat the airport - tothesensory shocksofan African slumanda growing realization of theeffects ofterrorism, poverty, anddeprivation on Uganda'spoor - especially thewomen.Atthispoint, we meetthefirst ofthesewomen, NamakasaRose. AnHIV-positive mother offour smallchildren, shewandered thenarrow, debrisstrewn paths ofhercommunity searching forsmallcoinswith which topurchase food.She was afraid totellherchildren ofherHIV status becauseinfection in Ugandacanstill beconsidered shameful. Butwhenshewasbrought intoBeadfor Lifeandsoonbegantoearna steady wage,shetoldthem. Hersonshouted, "This isa gooddisease!" Thenthere is AkotLillian,a survivor of themassacres perpetuated by the Lord'sResistance Army (LRA),a vicious, cult-like rebelorganization. Asa child, shelistened as hermother andfather weremurdered inthefront yardandclung toher"Ja-Ja," hergrandmother, whofledwith thechildren intothebush.ReganBlakeinterviewed Lillianinherhome- a 6 x 8-foot hut - insuffocating heat, and,atonepoint, herownemotions spilledout.In ourinterview, Regan-Blake spokeofthefour orfivepeoplewithwhomshefelt"a deepheart connection." RoseandLillianwereclearly twoofthem. Thefinal beaderwe meetis AduniAlice,another survivor. Sheandherchild were forced towatch her husband hacked todeath with a machete bytheir brotherin -law. After discovering that sheandhersecondchildhadAIDS, shetoofound Bead forLife,which gavehera newstart. She toldRegan-Blake thatsinceher experience with theorganization, "Hopeisbackonme." As thewomen'sstories unfold, we see their faceson screen, thenheartheir voices.The choiceto use technology in a performance can be a good one,as longas thestory is able to standon itsownas well. Regan-Blake madethe choicetoemploy computer-generated voicesandslidesas farbackas herfirst presentation of thismaterial yearsearlier. In an interview following thisperformance , shedescribed howtheshowevolvedfrom a lecture/slide showwith story totheperformance I witnessed, inwhichstory was prominent, supported byimagesofthewomen andtheir environment, andrecorded musicandvoices. Sheexplained that thistransition camewiththehelpoffeedback from listeners andother tellers, working withthetechnology, andsharply focused preparation andrehearsal. Although thedecisionwas a goodone,itis understandable why 74 JOHNSON ittooksometimeto reach.Even seasonedtellers likeRegan-Blake can forget that themostpowerful waytotransmit a messageorexperience is through syntagmatic , ornarrative discourse, andthatittouches thelistener on a levelthat paradigmatic discourse, andevenvisualimages, cannot. WhenRegan-Blake the artist is subsumed bytheconcerns ofRegan-Blake thesocialcommentator, the resultis compromised bothas a workof artand,interestingly, as a workof commentary. Theperformance demonstrated someofthepossible challenges ofa technologicallyenhanced performance, suchas a faulty remote control andcompatibility problems withthecomputer. ButRegan-Blake, a veteran performer, minimized thedisruption. Desiring tighter artistic control, shehadchosen tomanage someof thetechnical elements herself. Assigning that control toothers instead canfix the roleofstoryteller morefirmly intheminds oftheaudience members. The timeRegan-Blake spentin Ugandawas intense; theexperiences sometimeswrenching . Another African newcomer, publicist SusanSkog,becamea vitalpartner andsource ofsupport. Theydebriefed every day:swimming, talking, walking, weeping. Yet"right besidethe[African women's]pain,"Regan-Blake said,"right besidethelistening andfeeling that brutality andsadness, wastheir amazing resilience." Therecorded voicesofthesewomen, skillfully wovenintotheperformance, wereamongthemostmoving partsofthepiece.By definition, thesuccessor failure ofa storytelling performance is basednotonlyonitscontent butalsoon paralinguistics , that is,thewayinwhich thecontent is delivered orally. TheliltingsoundoftheUgandanwomen 'svoicesbrought backvividimagesformeof thewomenI worked withas a Peace Corpstrainer inother countries inAfrica. I wasalsoreminded ofa deeplymoving experience attheHolocaust Museumin...