Snow on Snow

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Snow on Snow Robert Clark (bio) Snow had fallen, snow on snow,Snow on snow,In the bleak mid-winterLong ago. You probably know these lines, either from Christina Rossetti's poem of 1871 or, more likely, Holst's setting of them as a carol. I used one of them as the title of a book, "bleak" altered to "deep" by the publisher, who thought "bleak" too bleak. Which it might indeed be. Rossetti was melancholic, iced up with unversed emotion, with passions gone gelid that, reticent and gob-stopped, couldn't quite state their names. She was a devout Anglo-Catholic. Her worship at Christ Church in London's Camden Town fumed with incense and candles, ardent for the Eucharist. Ever virgin, dazzled and expectant, she posed for Annunciations by her brother Gabriel and his Pre-Raphaelite cohort. Critics say her prosody had its roots in nursery rhymes, the tick-tock of fortunes and unravelings, of goblins vanquished, of witches made meek, of children saved and of children saving all—of things coming round upon themselves. Still, I say it was snow. She might have been cold, and then again she must have been misunderstood. Isn't that what children always and everywhere are—misunderstood? When I see snow falling, I hear a clock ticking; the clock next to the bed upon which my mother holds me, her heart its counterpoint; and the snow unwinds, sheathes and coils like drapery, like the shade that, as she leaves, cascades down the window sash. The clock gets lost in my own heartbeat and outside—you know this; you hear it ticking, swinging on its pendulum—the snow falls and will fall for as long as it takes to cover everything. A car will drive by, headlights tunneling, the tires a whir and then a rustle compressed to a sigh. There is a great [End Page 36] clockwork above you in heaven, geared and laboring, and it will spin all night until there is nothing but snow. It will do the work. You may rest. Angels will watch over your bed. They descend upon you like snow. Like a bell in the night, it tolls until it's put the world to sleep, rung it into silence. I will wake in the morning and it will be like Christmas: I will race to see what great thing has been accomplished, what thing—vouch-safed in the night—I've been given. And what I have is a world erased, whited out, veiled and muffled; snow on snow and then, for good measure (as Rossetti has it in the poem), snow on snow again. There's no time, only space. I am sub specie aeternitatis. There will be no more suffering. It has been laid down and covered over, swaddled in boundless white. Peace: that's how it is for me, swaddled too. I have the snow to keep me warm. Rossetti did not see it this way. In another poem, she finds a bird dead of cold and says, "Dig him a grave where the soft mosses grow / Raise him a tombstone of snow." And then, chillingly, she writes in "Wife to Husband," "Pardon the faults in me, / For the love of years ago: / Good-bye. / I must drift across the sea, / I must sink into the snow, / I must die." She was never a wife: her one intended broke off their engagement, saying he wanted to become a priest. So I must imagine who this husband might be. But perhaps I am misunderstanding her. Perhaps you are misunderstanding me. You may be thinking, all that snow is another word for obliteration, for the world wished away, for a kind of death. And perhaps you are right. It is I who misunderstands, and what I misunderstand is me. But where I grew up, in north country, the first snow fell in mid-November and piled up, snow on snow (none of it melting, only clotting, becoming denser, withdrawing deeper to make room for more of itself) until March. And then the ticking would begin again, in droplets of meltwater, from eaves and tree branches, along gutters and downspouts, from the rust...