Medically Assisted Dying in Canada: "Beautiful Death" Is Transforming Nurses' Experiences of Suffering.

Abstract

Nurses witness pain and distress up close and consequently experience their own suffering. A narrative study of Canadian nurses' participating in medical assistance in dying found nurses' previous witnessing of unresolved end-of-life suffering has shaped their acceptance of medical assistance in dying. Little is known about the impact of participating in medically assisted dying on nurses' suffering. To explore how nurses' overall experience of suffering is shaped by participating in medical assistance in dying. Qualitative secondary analysis using narrative inquiry and thematic analysis. Nurses' narratives are chronologically organized addressing experiences of suffering before medical assistance in dying was a legal option and after its implementation. An overarching narrative before the availability of medical assistance in dying is (1) a culture of nurses' taken-for-granted suffering: feeling terrible. After medical assistance in dying, two key narratives describe (2) transformational feelings of a beautiful death and (3) residual discomfort. Nurses found their suffering transformed when participating in medical assistance in dying; end-of-life care was satisfying and gratifying. And yet, unanswered questions due to worries of becoming desensitized and ongoing deeper questioning remain. Participating in medical assistance in dying has positively impacted nurses and starkly contrasts their previous experiences caring for those with unbearable suffering. Further research is needed to explore becoming desensitized and long-term emotional impact for nurses.