Late Night Talk Radio, Albuquerque, and: Behind My Ear is a Little Palace in Broad Daylight

Abstract

Late Night Talk Radio, Albuquerque Each night, a drunk or Jew, a poor schmuck is stuck in calamity and dramatized à la The Lone Ranger by Chicago's Pacific Garden Mission. Still, "Unshackled" is more soothing than the paranoid who peddles survival water pellets and bug detectors at a slightly higher frequency. Or the connect-the-dot melodics of alien sightseers, and worse, the liberal bashers' cacophony. It's all against me across the dial – radio has yet to progress from black & white. Maybe I would get some sleep if I accepted Jesus as my personal savior. In the dark I'm drawn to stories even though I know the end from the beginning, this cop (to the swell of organ music) saves the believer by changing his testimony the day after God wrestles him in sheets. Or Hyman Applebaum, the evangelical pastor who finds peace despite exile from my tribe. I'll tell you a secret. I sometimes try on Christianity at 1:58 am, still fish-hooked to consciousness, and squirming. So far Christ hasn't risen to the bait and, feeling vaguely guilty at casting my lot with the majority, I switch off [End Page 76] the radio and move on to remodeling my house in my head or replaying a movie or imagining leaves gently floating toward snow, and the next thing I know I'm waking up, having no memory of being abducted by sleep, emerging from a cleansing static, as if from a prayer. Behind My Ear is a Little Palace in Broad Daylight Naturally I think of Him when she taps the needle into the top of my foot. So this is the oft-spoken-of willingness to be pricked on a deity's meridian, blood beading up waxy like a bindi. Under my skin, I picture migraine demons growing frantic as steel pokes through a pore. Godzilla looms over Tokyo. Dr. Li posts a lightning rod on the top of my head as if she were a pilgrim to the North Pole. This is where pain pools after commuting from my neck in tiny axiomatic taxies. Listen. Behind my knee, the universe hums in its velvet bag. Through my wrists, a pulse shimmers with electric eels. I imagine leaking out through the needles, diffusing into the little room papered in Chinese music. Imagine sleep gently tacked to the table like a beetle specimen. How dream minions shriek and scatter when Dr. Li returns, bursting into the dark. I have not yet been resurrected I want to proclaim but she is already extracting that desire. Seven times she carries the needles, like offerings, to the red box. Traffic outside is relentless. She says go home little godling. Put on your socks.