Holy Water.

Abstract

Holy Water explores the infiltration of colonization on my home island, Belau, and the impact that it has had on our relationships to each other, our health, and our indigenous ways of knowing and being. I intentionally use baptism and Western Christianity as a metaphor for colonization to highlight the effect White supremacy has had on my people, while also challenging the ways in which we take part in continuing our colonial reality. I often run into contradictions about what Western culture deems we should be and who we actually are as Palauans-birthing this story of struggle into reclamation. This piece continually addresses the subject "unko," to highlight the tensions between myself, a queer femme diasporic micronesian, and the elder men in my community who have been forced into Westernization, and therefore enforce those same values and societal norms on my expression of self. I believe in radical self love and community care. I honor my ancestors and their fight for our liberation, and carry their legacy into my own journey. The health of my community depends on our ability to think critically about where we've been, who we are, and where we want to be. Holy Water is a testament to the reclamation of our stories, our history, and our collective power. To view the original version of this poem, see the supplemental material section of this article online.