Governing Oneself Through HIV Diagnosis to Antiretrovirals.

Abstract

The article focuses on the experience of reinventing oneself post HIV diagnosis when living on antiretrovirals. Six women and men enlisted for antiretrovirals in South African public health facilities were interviewed, and a qualitative analysis was conducted drawing on Foucault's theory of governmentality. For the participants, the prevailing governing rationality of taking personal responsibility for their health is synonymous with self-recovery and restoration of self-determination. From the hopelessness and despair of HIV diagnosis, for all six participants, committing to antiretrovirals enhances their capacity to take back control of their transformation from victim to survivor, and with it, a sense of personal integrity. Yet, an unwavering resolve to use ARVs is not always possible for some of them, is not preferable or is not always desirable, which perhaps signals that for certain people living with HIV, their life-long journey of self-governance with ARVs is likely to be characterized by constant contradictions.