Fracturing a Female Identity

Abstract

As a white woman raised in a rural community in a heteropatriarchal, evangelical Christian family whose tradition is hard work and family values, the author lived within the boundaries of those archetypal, stereotypical roles until tragedy struck, shaking the foundation of her self-concept as mother, wife, woman. This crisis invited a deterritorialization of self-concepts that imprisoned her, exposing her gendered existence, which she chronicled in journals over the period of this reimagining of self. Reflection on this personal writing reveals its role in developing not only the identity of a writer but the identity of a woman in the shattering and reimagining of facets of her “self” when a spouse’s moral undoing threatens her sense of being. In this autoethnographic study, the author’s Deleuzian approach to reflecting on identity through journal dipping into her own writing in a time of trauma and self-examination explores the possibilities for applying hermeneutics to personal texts to free the potential for rhizomatic expansion of feminine becoming born when the cultural expectations of feminine being in the United States South are fractured.