Cycle. For ABC

Abstract

forward: ive discovered a need to revert to notebook sloppiness some instances, having tried to prune & trim and failed. this is not Kerouac's dictum of spontaneous composition, that only works at times-and there are times when that has been the reason for going back to the original notebook entry: that the language flowed best then, the original. but mainly it's the need to feel free & unrestrained, to reiterate and reiterate, as many forms as feels necessary to one's own ear, the same thing. recently i got back a paper on Forster's PASSAGE TO INDIA complaining that in spite of your protest, i sometimes needed to express things with more philosophical clarity. first, i couldn't figure out what was meant by protest: that i had said class that i had no knowledge of Hinduism? that at some point the paper, on the contrary, i had implied a knowledge of certain esoteric doctrines? secondly, there occurred to me two reasons for the confusion R. the instructor complained of: a, that he was not hip enough to what i assumed he was hip to, and b, that i would dash off a concept one (what, to me, seemed graceful) trope, like referring to the Moment by Forster's trope of the snake (Ouroborous, the snake of eternity that devours itself) or by my trope of the trinity of BrahmaVishnu-Shiva, the perpetually regenerating-preserving-destroying character