All flowers bloom differently: an interpretative phenomenological analysis of the experiences of adult transgender women

Abstract

ABSTRACTMany studies focus on trans identity development in young individuals and on the stressors they face, but leave out the particularities of transitioning as an adult, particularly as a transwoman. This study remedies this gap by conducting qualitative interviews on a sample of six transwomen, in the UK, analysed using IPA. While young individuals typically experience a period of dissonance, followed by exploration and finally transition, adults may undergo a different sequence of self-discovery. The current research found that older transwomen generally grew up feeling different, but that their lack of exposure to other trans individuals and the anticipation of negative reactions delayed their transition and led them to engage in over compensatory behaviour. The participants began exploring their identity with the spread of the internet, by seeking new relationships that could bolster their need for coherence, while temporarily neglecting individuals that may have be non-verifying. The respondents thereafter came out to the majority of their ecosystem, forcing them to redefine their relationships and place in society. Physically transitioning improved most of the participants’ mental wellbeing, through a newfound sense of authenticity and coherence, although this was generally mitigated by the consistency of support offered by family and friends.